Time Passes and our hearts still are aching

Today marks the 2 month mark since the passing of our little Sadie Bug. My heart is full and word's just can't express the heaviness of loss I am feeling. I miss her way beyond words, but I also am comforted to know that she is in the loving arms of our Savior patiently waiting for all of us to return home and to be with her. I miss her belly deep giggle and her teasing grandpa. When she was younger she didn't quite know how to take Brad's grumbely teasing voice. But once she got older she quickly caught on and bantered back at him saying things like "Grandpa has stinky feet" and then she would giggle like nobodies business as he acted suprised and chided. I am greatful for my beliefs and faith to know that she lives on and is no longer suffering. Here's to you my dear darling angel. I am sending you hugs and kisses today and want you to know how much you are loved and missed. I'll remind grandpa for you today that his feet are still stinky and that you said so! I love you beyond words! Noni Here are some of my favorite pic's of our dear darling SadieBug.

Redemption

Ok so I have to ask to be redeemed from being such a slacker and not posting anything for sooooooooooo long. One of my excuses is not having or making enough time to try to learn the ropes of this cyber thing. The other reason is that I feel like life has truly taken me over.

So enough of that. Here it is fall again, and I am loving the weather we are having. I love fall because of the change colors and smells that come with it all. I have always loved to can food. So when fall comes around I usually can jams and fruit and even salsa. This year I tried to grow a salsa garden and so far all I have been able to produce is green peppers. With the summer being so wet so late in the season, my tomatoe vines are huge but the produce is minimal. I will try to do better next year by covering them.

We just got back from a family campout up at current creek. Zac and his family and Mackenzie and her family came up. We all camped together at the camp ground. Wow what a surreal feeling it is to see your family grow and to see your kids become good parents. We had fun trying to catch the big fish but we truly got skunked. We even saw a rainbow on a very sunny day. Since Sadie passed away, I have never seen so many rainbows on clear bright days. We'd like to think it is her way of saying, I'm here with you all and looking over you. Boy do I miss that little gal. The hurt sometimes is overwhelming. I just have to get a good cry out of me and then continue on. It's really hard. I can't imagine how Zac and T are getting thru this but they are pillars of stregnth to us all.

After coming back from our trip yesterday, I stopped by the cematary to visit Little Miss Sadie. Her resting place is to peaceful and surreen. She should be getting her headstone soon. Zac said it is beautiful.

Well, as I simplify my life, I am making a pledge to write on this blog more frequently. Take care!

Words From A Prophet

What a fun weekend we've had..especially listening to conference. I always love to hear from President Monson (he has always had a special place in my heart). Mackenzie and Ian invited Brad and I along with Zac and his family to listen to the last session of conference on Sunday. Of course, Kenzie had prepared a feast...wow she is a fabulous cook! How did that happen..she didn't inherit that gene from me. But how fun it was to be gathered together as a famly to listen to tiny giggeling voices and to hear council from our dear prophet and apostles.
As the opening prayer was being said, the thought entered my mind that over 13 million people were praying and hearing the opening prayer at the same time...wow...now that is one powerful prayer for the Lord to stand up and pay attention to. Not that he doesn't hear our single prayers from the smallest to the tallest of prayers. HOW POWERFUL!

I loved spending time with my family and enjoying the moments of quiet joy...Mackenzie, Sadie and Olivia were scrapbooking..Zac had Sam in his arms sound asleep, resting. Jackson dressed up as his favorite super hero Batman and Tiffany and Ian listening intensely to the council given. Grandpa Brad nodding off and on.

I also felt for a fleeting moment how our heavenly father must feel, when his children are obedient. The love and joy he must feel. A feeling of love overwhelmed me, as I watched my small family living and loving life together. The message of President Monson saying that we should "Find Joy in the Journey", made me realize that life is precious and each moment we should treasure.

So my friends, take heed to what the Prophet said and start today to find joy in your journey of life.

It's a Sew Day! Yea!!

Well today I had the opportunity to hang out with my quilting buddies! Yippee Skippee....Sewing a quilt is so much fun...and hanging out with Jana and Hollie is the bestever!
Jana is the "queen of blogging" and she shared a few tips on how to make our blogs look more interesting....Thanks Jana banana! mine wasn't looking too sexy..but now it's dressed up a little better and especially thanks to Hollie to making a small feast for us....Yummmm! Home made clam chowder..she's the best cook ever..I am blessed to have such great friends that love to do the same things I enjoy!

My nephew Niel and his wife Christiana are having a baby girl and so I made their baby of course "a baby quilt".

I have in my sewing room a saying that Mackenzie gave to me that says "when life gives you scraps, make a quilt".. I've made alot of quilts so my life must be really scrappy...it's really not, I am just an obcessive quilter.

We also put our house up for sale yesterday. I'm holding my breath..on this one...we want to sell our home and build on the piece of ground we have here in Cedar Pass Ranch..we are not going far...we had a showing today and I have been going crazy..now I know how my clients feel when their homes get shown...I can't even imagine showings day after day after day....

So we wait..for the right person to buy it! I'm confident that things will be OK!

Living Life Outloud

I have been contemplating doing this for a long time....so here I go....

I want to dedicate this blog to all of the wonderful people in my life. What a great and wonderful blessing it is to have so many family and friends, who inspire me.

What a blessing this "blog" business is. I have always felt that my communication skills needed some help so, thus the name of my blog...To Live Life Outloud. So by using this cyber tool, hopefully

it will allow me to write down and channel my feelings and thoughts.

I want to dedicate my first post to my brave little 5 year old granddaughter Sadie Brynne Huish http://www.sadiehuigh.blogspot.com/,

who at this time is battling terminal brain cancer. She was diagnosed on March 5, 2008, of this year. She is my son Zacs oldest daughter, he has 2 other georgous little girls, Olivia 3 and Samantha 1. He and his wife Tiffany are my hero's. They have handled this great challenge

with such grace and humility.

I love all 11 of our grandchildren very deeply..and think they are all VERY SPECIAL! They truly are....they all have their own darling personalities that allow me to love them in different ways.

Sadie Bug is our little brave and strong willed little gal. She has a smile that will melt your heart and brown eyes that when you look into them, you know your looking directly into her soul and into the eyes of God. Through this challenge she faces, she has NEVER once complained. She has a heart of gold and is always concerned about her loved ones. It is fun to watch she and Olivia. Even thought this little gal is only 5 years young, she has a very old and loving spirit about her. She watches over Livia and Sam like a hawk and loves them to her bones. She has a belly laugh giggle that will rock your world and make you smile to your toes. I love our days we spend

baking. I call her and Livie, Sadie and Livie Crocker. They both crawl up on my counter in my kitchen and we bake up a storm. Interestingly enough, when I ask her what we are baking and who should we give the baked goods to, it's always for someone else. She has never said "for me". We've baked a cake for her grandma great, cupcakes for grandpa great. She loves to bake cupcakes for her special Aunt Kenzie, cuz Kenzie always tells her "they are the best cupcakes she's ever tasted".

Sadie bug glows when she hears Kenzie say that to her. I see a special glow in Sadie's eyes when she delivers her baked goods to the people she bakes for. She loves to serve....now what 5 year old do you know even understands the meaning of service? She does...I know that

through this challenge the lord has handed to her....The Lord is silently

teaching her through her spirit...What a miracle this is to watch.

Her parents Zac and Tiffany are truly sent to us from heaven also...I am eternally greatful that. They live the gospel to the fullest and take heed on the teachings of the church. They totally understand the concept of "obedienceand long suffering". They both have handled this situation

with grace and understanding.

As a child, Zac was always been quiet and observant. He has always been a "go with the flow" kind of guy. Growing up with 2 women in our household, me a single mother and his sister Mackenzie, (Kenzie, who by the way is my other miracle child, who I will dedicate an entire

post to at a later date) poor guy didn't have a chance to get a word in edgewise with us two ruling the roost. Who would of known that when he would marry that he would 4 other women, 3 little girls and a wife...more of the girl ruling the roost thing and be being the only male in the

family...still "going with the flow." He is an amazing young man, whom I am so blessed and proud to call him my son. Zac the peacemaker... A mother couldn't be more proud of a son as I am of my Zac. Also never complains...quiet and vigilent..salwart and true. This is who Zac is.....Zac I love you with all of my heart...

Now a little about Tiffany....this girl is an amazing women..we fondly call her T. One couldn't ask for a better daughter in law...I consider her my own daughter. She is silent and observant to all that goes around her. She is a "doer". She is a wonderful mother to my granddaughters

and cares for Sadie in a way, I can't even put into words. Never a word of complaint from her! Always loving and understanding. She cares for Sadie and the girls and loves them unconditionally and loves my son the same way. The girls and Zac come first then her somewhere down the line. She is a diligent and stalwart soul. I love the way she teaches the girls to read and play. I have learned from T that you don't have to be caught up in the things of the world. She's taught me to sit back and enjoy the moment. She is a very patient person. T you are the best and I love you so much. I am greatful for your willingness to serve my son and your

family with such diligence and grace.

Sadie is truly her mothers daughter. They are both alot alike in many ways. Sadie has picked up all of the best qualities of both of her parents.

So there you have it....my very first blog post......I can't wait to sign on again and write and tell you more about my wonderul family!